Erin's Blog

More boring stuff about my life....

Yikes. I really need to try to update this more often.

I caught up with a good friend from DC that I used to work with. I was initially surprised at his reaction to my "news" and have been even more pleasantly surprised with his current actions towards me. If you're out there reading this buddy, thanks!

I've been talking with a (different) good friend of mine about coming out to the east coast for a visit. Now that I voted for my shifts at work (today), I know I have Wednesdays and Thursdays off for the next 4 months. I will try to use my floating holiday and my birthday (they pay you for your birthday and you get the day off) to arrange a 4-day weekend to visit out there. I haven't been "home" since October, 2002.

I went up to Aspen, CO for the weekend with my friend Ci. We had a great time. I drove, she paid for the room. Fair trade, I'd say. I got to get into a hot tub and a pool -- I haven't been in either in quite a while, and I've _never_ been in a hot tub or a pool while living as a girl. There were several other people in the hot tub and they barely gave me a second look as I got in and out of the pool. I guess I can pass pretty well, even in a bathing suit!

This week at work I have a hold-down -- a shift I will be doing all week. Unfortunately, it involves two routes that I hate with a passion. Great. At least I know when I will be at work. Because of the hold-down, I had to reschedule my therapy appointment. Luckily, my therapist is very flexible and can handle my weird requirements.

I am tired and have to get up at 3:15am to go to work. Goodnight!

_erin

More boring stuff about my life....

Just thought I'd share some information about my job. Pretty much every day at work, I am driving one of these:



It is an Orion bus. Specifically, it is an Orion model V (Roman numeral 5). As much as I swear up and down that I would never drive a Chrysler product of my own accord, I am forced to at work.

Work has been going well. I was almost late for my afternoon piece of work yesterday. Luckily, I made it just in time. That would have been Bad(tm). If I am late three times within my 120-day probation period, I will be fired. Luckily, I am not close to that yet, but I don't want to start!

I went to the doctor yesterday. We talked a bit about diabetes and high blood pressure. The last time I was there my blood pressure was normal, but this visit it was a little high. They recommended staying away from foods filled with sodium. Luckily, that isn't a problem for me, nor do I add salt to food. I don't even own a salt shaker, LOL! We also discussed my weight. Since I started visiting them, I've lost over 20 pounds. We talked about how to keep that trend up (eat 5 or 6 small meals daily, get more exercise). I got some refills on my prescriptions and my hormones as well. That reminds me, today is my one-year anniversary on hormones. ::yay!::

I am still going through all the things in my apartment. I need to decide what to keep and what to throw away, as I have _way_ too much stuff. I have made it a requirement to spend at least one hour daily going through things and unpacking. Hopefully I will be done soon, and enjoy my place. I _hate_ living in a place that is still half-packed, LOL!

In any case, I need to get up at 3:00am for work tomorrow. Goodnight!

_erin

More boring stuff about my life....

It's been a few days.

I went to see my therapist on Friday. I really like her a lot. She and I "click" which I think is great. She gave me my "letter" and said that when she sent copies of the letter to my work, they responded by having an attorney call. She said the attorney was very "bitchy" -- her word, not mine. Funny thing is I haven't heard any of this from work at all.

Saturday I picked up most of my remaining things from Melissa's place. There are a few things that I've noticed that I still didn't have. I mentioned them to her, and she said "Well, this is what you are getting today." Funny. I told her I'd e-mail her a list of all the things I still don't have.

Saturday night I hung out with my friend Ci. She made some sweet-n-sour wings that were just killer-good. She made them with her own recipe of sauce, too. Yummy. After eating a bit at her place we met up with some friends she had met the previous weekend and we all went to a nightclub that had free drinks from 9pm - 10pm. I broke my previous record of 12 drinks -- I drank 16 last night. I also got very sick. Ci was nice enough to drive me directly home.

I awoke around 9am. I tried to get up to use the restroom, but quickly decided it wouldn't be a good idea to walk quite yet. I re-awoke around 11am, and used the restroom. Then I went back to sleep. I finally got up and showered around 3pm. It felt _good_ to brush my teeth. I got online after the shower and Ci e-mailed me. She asked if I was OK. The reason she e-mailed me was I left my phone in my purse. My purse was still at her place, LOL. I responded saying I was alive and asked when I could come over to pick up my purse and car. She responded quickly saying that she was home for the evening and said to come over whenever.

I walked over (it was a beautiful night) and we hung out for a few hours. I helped them with a computer problem they were having and we sat outside on her balcony and chatted for a while, too.

I just got home a few minutes ago. I am heading to bed -- I have to be at work at 6am tomorrow. Fun.

_erin

Link/Tip of the day:

For those of you unfortunate enough to use "Micro$loth™ Winblows™ XP," Windows XP Service Pack 2 is out.

It came out on August 6th for PC manufacturers to load on their new PCs. It is called the "RTM" (Release To Manufacturers) and you can Download all 266MB of it here.

Note: You will need a program to un-RAR it, like WinRAR. Cracks to register WinRAR are available here (pop-up warning!).

I downloaded it and it is indeed the final version -- it is NOT a beta version or a release candidate!

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More boring stuff about my life....

Today I drove on the mall for the first time by myself! Fun stuff! I don't actually think I'd mind it that much. I drove for 3.5 hours this morning and it went by _very_ quickly. I don't think 8 hours or so would be too bad.

I am on my break in between shifts -- I have to go back around 2pm to drive a route 35. Yuck. At least I had fun this morning!

The weather has been very nice recently here in Denver -- low to mid 70's and for the most part, sunny. There was a tornado in eastern Colorado yesterday that sent NWS warnings over the Emergency Alert System. They of course, interrupted the verdict in one of my favorite TV shows, Law and Order. Bleh.

Anywho, think I will take a nap and eat some lunch.

::hugs::

_erin

More boring stuff about my life....

Well, it's been a while. Work has been keeping me busy. Last week I had the same shift I did the previous week -- 2:30am - 10:30am and then back again around 4:00pm - 6:30pm or so. I slept pretty much all day yesterday, my body's way of catching up on the lack of sleep, I assume. Today I woke up bright and early and did some cleaning and chores. Did the laundry so now I have clean uniforms and underwear for next week. ::yay!::

I have made an appointment with my therapist for Friday, so I can talk to her about the suicidal thoughts. They're still there -- they're not getting any worse, nor are they subsiding. I made an appointment to talk with the doctor about my medication dosage -- in September.

For work this upcoming week, I didn't get a hold down, so I go back on the "board" where I will find out what I am doing less than 24 hours in advance. Fun.

I am participating in a sleep study. I am constantly tired and want to find out why now that I have insurance. I have to fill out a sleep diary for 14 days, and then I will participate in several group sessions where I will talk with a nurse at University Hospital. Hopefully I will learn a bit about my sleep habits and possible ways to not be so exhausted all the time.

I think I will head over to the library and return my book and look for something new to read.

::hugs::

_erin